So its been a While

Well its really been a while. Things have not worked out with the IUI's so we are taking another break from treatments and just hoping thing will happen own its own. We are moving forward to IVF in Feb. 2012. Its been 5 years now. I cant believe it. So much has happen yet so little in my life. I know in my heart Ill be a mother. I trust in the Lord that he has a perfect plan for me. Its funny the other night we had an interview with our community group leader because we are becoming members of our church. We let him know a little bit of what has been going on in our life and he said something that made total since to me. He said "the Lord is not trying to rob you have your happiness you just want it in your time not his. Its like if one of my daughters was riding her bike on a busy road and I said get off that bike and the road and play somewhere else, its not because I want to rob her of her happiness but because I know whats best for her. She doesnt know what I know. Thats the role God plays in your life. You dont know his plans for you. You just have to trust he know what is best." I never looked at it that way. It made me smile. Josh and I love our new found faith and our new church. I always had a relationship with God its just stronger now. So moving forward I am Okay and will trust in the Lord with all my heart.